Selfish Ambitions

Selfish Ambitions?!?!?!? what is it?

according to Dictionary.com
Selfish - devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with ones one interest, benefits, welfare, etc. Regardless of others.
Ambitions - an earnest desire for some type of achievement or distinction, as power, honor, fame, or wealth, and the willingness to strive for it's attainment.

So what got me thinking about selfish ambitions? (making a long story short i will get to the point about selfish ambitons) One of my friends and I who I hadnt hung out with in a while were talking. I told him that I had joined Eharmony. We were talking about relationships and the desire to be married. He then brought up the Bible verse found in Galations 5:20 (there is also another verse in 1 Cor 12:20 that talks about selfish ambitions as well). We talked about how Paul says its better to be single so that we might serve the LORD with our whole lives. The conversation continued...

This got me thinking ... How much in my life is a selfish ambition... how often am i doing things that are not necissarliy wrong in the world's eyes or even some Christians eye's but are truly just self seeking ambitions. Is getting my job a selfish ambition, is dating a selfish ambition, is wanting to save up to buy a condo, a car, and whatever else all selfish ambitions?

So I came to the conclusion... I need to seek God in every situation.

In my future job i need to be on my knees fasting and praying that I get hired where HE wants me to be. Not where I want to be. I need to be open to going where ever HE wants me whether thats in southern califonia or in some other country.

In dating...after the past few months of dating...i've decided i dont like it... i don't really enjoy it all actually. I love meeting new people and getting to them...but dating?!?!!? i guess there is a reason i never really dated before this and that is BECAUSE there is NO POINT!!!! whats the point in going out with different people all the time to just realize that you are trying to rush God's timing and just hurry up and check the next thing off your to do list... so i said good bye to eharmony with the help of another friend who changed my password so i can't log on until God makes it perfectly clear that HE wants me on there (which I would be surprised if i ever log on again to be completly honest). I did pray about buying my subscription before going on but it was one of those prayers that was more like God if you don't want me to go on stop me...and if you want me to go on provide the money (when i kinda sorta knew i was getting a job that week). So did i waist my money...Yes and No I just had to spend $100 to learn that I need to not be seeking my selfish ambitions and be on my knees a little more often seeking the will of the LORD.

Saving my money to buy a condo and a car?!?!?! selfish ambitions? Well i could justify both purchases very easily. But why invest in a home on this earth if I don't know if God wants me to live in the Inland empire. Why put money into a new car if i have a car that works (well most of it works just not the air... and it sounds like its playing the tambourine sometimes) but ultimately how would these things help me to further the Kingdom of God?

So life lesson learned i need to be on my knees a lot more and not be so much of a planner. I want to just allow God to work in my life and be used by HIM!