Handle it

Handling life circumstances...some people eat, others exercise I sleep. Whenever i have an issue or im stressed out about something I just want to sleep.I want to go to sleep because when i wake up the problelm isn't as big as it was before i fell asleep. Now i dont want to go to sleep i dont like to sleep. I dont ever want to go up stairs and go to bed at night. The problem doesn't seem smaller when i wake up if anything the problem becomes more real everytime i wake up. The reality that she's not at home with us anymore. The reality that i miss her being here. I miss walking down stairs and bein aggravated or annoyed with her for some stupid little thing that happened. She was there to bounce my random ideas off of...or just to talk to me about everything in life God, school, boys, life. She is my Big sister and i have lived with her on and off for the past 21 years. She has been someone i've looked up to. Someone to learn from and someone who has always been there for me.
The good thing about me not wanting to go to sleep is that now when i try to handle whats going on around me i am able to cling to the Lord. I realize that i cant handle it and He is the only one i know that can! I didnt and dont want to turn to eating or exercising or anything else people turn to when life becomes crazy. God is here for us. And im constantly remided of how GREAT HE is. That the purpose of this life is to bring GLORY to the creator of the universe! How awesome it is that He wants to have a relationship with me. He wants me to cry out to Him and talk to Him about whats going on. ive turned from sleeping things off to handing things over to God. Theres no other way my family will be able to make it through this with out handing it all over to God.

Cancer

How real cancer becomes once it hits your family. The months of march and april have been extremely challenging. My cousin and uncle died of cancer. And just this past week we found out my older sister who is 27 years old and 29 weeks pregnant now has cancer.
God is the only one who is going to be able to get my family through this. I know He has a purpose and a plan for everything. The Bible says that God is our provider our savior our comforter our hope our salvation. Because of these i know that everything is going to be ok. I am praying that God grants my faily comfort that we have a peace with everything that is going on and that we might be able to lead others to the Lord through this. That we will look past the problem and look to the problem solver. HE is in control and He knows whats going to happen and why its going to happen that way. I need to remind my self to keep my eyes off the cancer off the problems around me and keep focus upon My LORD and Savior.